Acceptance

"His invitation, “Ask, and ye shall receive” (3 Ne. 27:29) does not assure that you will get what you want. It does guarantee that, if worthy, you will get what you need, as judged by a Father that loves you perfectly, who wants your eternal happiness even more than do you.” -Elder Richard G. Scott

Sigh...

The above quote perfectly illustrates on of the hardest concepts for me. You see, I am a bit of a control freak and it's only become worse as I have spent my profession as a drama teacher. I am great at being in charge and I am used to being the leader of my own dominion. I control my environment, I make decisions and things usually go my way. That is, in my profession- in my personal life- it's an entirely different story. 

I was talking with a dear friend today about how I struggle with certain things in my life. How I fear that time is passing me by as I get older. And he reminded me that I need to let go and basically chill out. I'm trying to learn to give the controls over to The Lord. And have faith, faith that someway, somehow everything my heart desires will come to pass. Someday, all in the right time.

So, in the meantime I live my truly awesome life! I laugh, I teach, I grow and I have spontaneous dance parties! 

I need to accept things as they are and look forward with a brightness of hope and never lose sight of the fact that The Lord is in charge. 

The Spirit of Life

So much has been happening this past month! First off, my students competed at region and placed FIRST!!!! I am so proud of them and their efforts! The one act I've been doing with my students is entitled "The Spirit of Life" and it is taken from a book called "The Hasidic Tales of the Holocaust" the stories are laced with hope, overcoming fears, tenacity and the light that shines through the darkness. It is truly a beautiful piece and it has changed both me and my students.

I love how Theatre can be used as a tool to teach and understand humanity and how we are all connected. I love it. I love how my students inspire me and are willing to work for me. So blessed.
Next week I am heading to Disneyland with about 100 students for out annual tour. It may sound crazy, but it is so much fun! I love my kids.
I've also been thinking a lot lately about progression. I've been attending my family ward for a year now and although I've enjoyed my time here, I keep wondering if it is time for me to go to the older singles ward. Lets face facts... besides my feeble attempts at the online dating world, I don't ever have opportunities to date. And last night, out of curiosity, I made the mistake of looking up women's fertility online... According to the sites I looked at, 35 is the age when everything really starts to head downhill and it becomes increasingly difficult to get pregnant... Awesome... Which means if I want children I needed to get married yesterday...
Two weeks ago I was convinced to go to the other ward. Then last Sunday, I felt like I should stay. Which is it?
Just feeling older I guess. I always felt like I would have all the time in the world to become a wife and a mother, now I'm not so sure.
I'm at a loss... What to do, what to do?

February

Since I started my blog a few years ago, I have posted at least once a month... until now. I missed February 2013- it just slipped by without notice because so much was happening.
On February 14th, 2013- my Grandma Adeline Petty passed away. She had been sick for a long time so it wasn't really a shock. As I explained to a friend- it's not really tragic, it's just incredibly sad. I think it's been hardest on my Mom. She has spent nearly every day for the past three years taking care of Grandma, her Mom.
Relationships.
At the end of January-beginning of February my students performed the play "Over the River & Through the Woods"- a story about how relationships (specifically family) shape who we become. "How much do we owe someone for their devotion? Can it ever be enough?"