I need to be asleep. But my mind won't shut off. Hopefully this post will alleviate some of my persistent thoughts so I can sleep. Tomorrow is a district meeting that will hopefully be considerably less traumatic than last year, one can hope. I'm supposed to present something but have had no time to prepare.
The school is behind on construction meaning my classroom is a mess and I am not even remotely prepared to have students on Wednesday aaannnnndddd I get to spend tomorrow at the district... Lame. LAME!
My heart feels heavy. How I wish I could be immune to how others choices make me feel. I wish I could rewind certain aspects of my life to a few years ago. Things were simpler then and my heart wasn't so heavy. I worry all the time about things over which I have no control and sometimes my heart just physically aches. I'm trying so hard to not care.
I'm starting my masters degree in a week. I'm excited but apprehensive. I want to do a good job, I have to make time to be successful.
I'm anxious. I rarely feel anxious. I don't like feeling anxious.
The truth is I need to find a way to not feel so weighed down with my life. It feels overwhelming and crushing right now...
Maybe now I can sleep.
1 comment:
I'm sorry I didn't see this until tonight. I hope everything went well today. I will keep you in my prayers. I know that heavy feeling and I also know that it will be okay because you have an amazing spirit. That sounds so trite and girly but I mean it with all sincerity. You got this. :)
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