Burnt Out

They say too much of a good thing isn't good for people. I agree. One of my favorite things in the world is the theatre, hence my career choice.

But, right now, I am burnt out from theatre. I just returned from a three day conference with my students at Westminster College. I think the kids had a great time, learned some things, a few auditioned for scholarships and were successful.
But, I wanted to be anywhere but there.
Talking shop with other teachers, attending workshops on acting techniques, making sure no kids were left behind. I. was. just. done.
Not to mention the horrendous weather. In Salt Lake City, we have a yucky inversion each winter. We were outside a lot in freezing rain and fog. It just made things more obnoxious.
I just need a break. I need to find balance. I need to find the time.
This has been my school year so far- September - November- "Sound of Music", then I took a weekend and auditioned for my next show "Over the River & Through the Woods" which opens this week. All while this is going on I am working to get students ready for Region and State competition (last year we placed 3rd, so I want to do just as well if not better. I hope to uphold our reputation.) This week are auditions for the first student production and I hope I've done enough to help advertise the show. Also, for region one-acts I've decided to do a show called the "Spirit of Life" which is based on accounts from the holocaust. I'm working with my Theatre 3 class (the juniors) to do the one-act. It's a beautiful and poignant story which is also movement based. When I first decided to do the show, I was excited to do the journey. Now, I have no desire to go on the journey. I am not feeling inspired, and in fact I am quite reluctant to do the work. Also, I have some administrative responsibilities that have to be taken care of.
I go, go, go, go & go. And I am tired.
But, I have to keep going- it's my job. Maybe it's just the weather.
Sigh- I know I need to seek out more social opportunities, but I am torn. I am tired and often have no desire to meet new people, but, at the same time, I know in order to meet new people and possibly date people I have to meet. new. people...
I would just like to have a spouse to support me through all of my madness, listen to me vent... I keep a lot of my thoughts and emotions internally during the day so I don't take it out on the students... so I vent to the dogs... who are great listeners... but not too much for the talking... oh well.
For some reason, turning 34 has been quite hard. It hit me a few weeks ago in church. I am the chorister so I just sit on the stand each Sunday (because I have no one to sit with in the congregation.) Anyway, a woman spoke and stated she has been married for two years and had met her husband in high school. Where she had graduated in 2010...
Not only am I too old to be in the singles ward, I am too old to be a young adult in my own ward. I feel like I am rapidly approaching middle age. I am feeling so much older than I ever have. Which makes sense, but usually it doesn't bug me too much.
Also, I had a frustrating thing happen recently with my finances... so much stress...
So, yeah, I just want to go somewhere warm, with people I love and who make me happy. I want to wear shorts and watch the sunset on the beach.
But, I trudge to the school each day and fake enthusiasm and do theatre...
Just keep swimming... I guess.