Ahhhhhh... I love ice. While I was in Europe, I developed a greater appreciation for ice. Cold Drinks, Air Conditioning...
I also LOVE DIET DR. PEPPER! Yes, I know it is caffeinated and yes it is carbonated, but oh so tasty! And whereas I am trying to not eat sweets, sometimes it just hits the spot! Ahhhhh!
As y'all know (who read this blog with some frequency) I've been rather pensive these last few months, trying to figure out a lot of things, learning from a lot of things and making a lot of mistakes. So what conclusions have I reached?
In short, very few. I used to scoff at the saying 'the older I get the more I realize the less I know', or something like that- I think this is becoming my new mantra. When I was younger, I knew EVERYTHING, had all the answers, I was very smart. And now... life has schooled me. And not always in the most pleasant way. But, I do know, no matter what it is important to try to maintain a positive attitude and enjoy the happiness in life. Forgive others when they have hurt your feelings, spend time with those who love you, take time to dream...
What is it that prevents us from reaching our full potential? When I first started this blog, I talked about my desire to lose weight, and my efforts to do it. And here I am, months later in essentially the same situation- why?
I got home from Europe a week ago, lost 4.5 lbs. (A result of a ton of walking), worked out all week, but ate whatever I wanted. As a result, I am dreading seeing my trainer tomorrow as he gives me the I am disappointed in you look. What is stopping me? I feel like sometimes I am two people- the conscious me and the unconscious me. The conscious me is aware, goes to the Gym, sets goals, takes care of herself... the unconscious me is autopilot and before I know it, I've eaten a half gallon of ice cream in one day (which happened to me last week). The unconscious me doesn't give a rat's patootie about changing and becoming better. And when it comes to eating, the unconscious me often rules the day. I guess this could also be comparable to the natural man.
Becoming aware.
3 comments:
FIrst of all your trip to Europe looked amazingly fun . . .besides the heat rash! That is so great that you were able to go and have such a great time! I'm incredibly jealous but I am getting over it just by the mere fact that i love you! I too am becoming aware of my unconcious self and the battle it is to over come. I am so grateful for your openness because I sit here and think how you put into words the things that are going on in my head and heart! I love ya!
Kjersti, you are amazing. I don't think you realize how much a look up to you and admire you. You also don't realize how many conversations Adam and I have had about what a great catch you are. You are an amazingly talented and beautiful woman and I am so lucky to count you as a friend.
I am so grateful to know you and that I get to share this journey with you! I know our struggles may be different, but I have to say that it helps me so much to know that I'm not the only imperfect doofus trying to fumble my way through life. I don't know if we'll ever get the answers we seek, but at least we have the adventure, and amazing people to learn with along the way.
I love you!
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