Now, I've become quite the expert at 'hiding' how I truly look. Whether it be angling my body a certain way or hiding behind others to mask my girth, I've been there done that. Now, I am not throwing myself a pity party, but I am being honest. This picture was taken last October at the beginning of my bodybugg journey. The beginning of "getting real" with myself.
Over the holidays I gained about 6 lbs. It was tough. But, I'm already down 4! So that means, since this picture was taken I have lost 8 lbs. I am glad this picture was taken, I need to be reminded of what I look like. How I truly do need to lose the weight. It's a matter of my life.
I think whenever you embark on a life change, you have to constantly reasses and check yourself. Now regardless of whatever happened to cause you (me) to get out of control it is important to deal with.
When I was younger, I built a bubble of protection around myself as to not deal with the realities of my life. I dealt with a lot of crap. I hid behind my bubbly personality, my talents and I ate to feel... something... Now, as an adult, my life is pretty smooth compared to my teenage years, but oh the habits that formed! But, I had to ask myself- What do I really want out of life?
I WANT TO LIVE!!
I think everyday we have a choice to live or die by the actions we choose. What do you choose?
2 comments:
I'm sorry! I did not even think that picture would do anything like that, it was just a random one I took!
But on the same note, I am so proud of you. I think you are absolutely beautiful and fabulous either way, but you have set some goals, made some bold and difficult decisions and you are changing your life. You are AMAZING, and reading about your journey on this blog is absolutely inspiring.
Thank you for your strength and example.
You are one AMAZING lady, Kjersti, and I'm with Amy: you are beautiful and wonderful no matter what size you are.
I admire your determination to change you life. Weight is one heck of a hard thing to master, and my hat is off to you!
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